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what I'm working on today [Aug. 1st, 2015|02:52 pm]
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Picked this one up again [Jul. 27th, 2015|07:12 pm]
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Hoping to finish it soon. I started it maybe 5 years ago. Finally adding just what the background needs. Also, I'm on snapchat: @brokeneyeball
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From my brief stay in Mexico this summer [Jul. 22nd, 2015|10:56 pm]
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[Current Location |Tierra Colorada, Gro.]
[Current Mood |happyhappy]







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Recent work [Apr. 22nd, 2015|04:15 pm]
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Slow Progress ✨ [Apr. 8th, 2015|02:20 am]
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finally painting again. & last night pictured [Apr. 7th, 2015|09:53 pm]
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I think this picture is from last night. Maybe just over 24 hours ago. Ff makes me wrk on day job related stuff
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still life [Mar. 19th, 2015|03:43 am]
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I've been working digitally this week, on upcoming prints. Today I started this still life! I actually have these items arranged like this. It's fun, so far I felt it sucked the whole way through, but actually it's coming together nicely, I think.
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Upcoming times [Mar. 8th, 2015|11:46 pm]
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[Current Location |Studio Area]
[Current Mood |creativecreative]

I've recently, only two weeks in, started working out. It will be good for me. I also got a show recently, maybe last Monday or something. Wednesday, I had a meeting to see the space and etc. It's a space, and I have a spot in the back, there is a sort of room, and I get to fill that space. the Front area has large window views, and when you enter and approach the back, you will see my area. I accepted, even though, I only have five weeks to prepare. I have one painting in progress, it's the one I've been showing recently, below, I think she will be perfect, well, it is a large painting, and If I find a fitting framed, that is ornate, I can set a good price for it, and well, it's large, it will look good in a gallery. I want to include my homage painting, the Rabbit pulling out tiny people from it's hat. and I just decided, I will use this other longer canvas I have, to paint a second rabbit man, one that is sitting on a bus stop, and much like my In the Waiting Room painting, he will be surrounded by people, well, these people are girls. in both rabbit scenarios. I keep wanting to link this liverjournal from my blog, it's not professional here, it's mostly personal, but, well, I'm talking to no one here, and that's okay. but, I like what I write I'm excited for what I'll be working on, for the exhibition.. A bit, nervous, about the time, and not being able to work longer on these pieces. but, I feel confident and optimistic. It was just very sudden. I only got the offer last week, and I would have started working imediately but, it was first Friday week, and we had a lot of printing and preparing to do. Tomorrow is Monday, and, I will start. Finish the girl,, with the nest, Something about.... The Guilt they Carry.., as a title. The Bus Stop.., Homage to the Bunny... and I'd hope another portrait, closeup.. Maybe one of this girl I have an idea of, staring melancholy like.. past you. I might add small portraits too. I have six.. that might do okay. two of them I love, two more are also sealed, two last are not sealed. Sigh. I want to paint many things. I want to think of this show as a whole though, and prepare what I'd like to show, I mean, think about it really. I also want to get into good shape. I have gained weight, and I really dislike it. I want to feel good, from the inside out.
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start of work today [Feb. 23rd, 2015|02:59 pm]
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It's easy to say things [Feb. 22nd, 2015|05:39 pm]
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But difficult to find the best, do the best, stick to the best things you'd like to do. It's just how it is. You know, maybe sortof.
I have three things in focus.
Oil Painting
Prints
Walls

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As usual, oil painting is my life, if I can't do it forever, I may as well die. Secondly, prints, as in polish art in such a way that it can be a new print. Either, small, regular, or large! This all means, taking all my art to the last level, scanned, levels fixed, or photographed in great lighting, adjusted to look like the original looks when you are together facing each other in the world. And often, I can't help but further detail some of my digitized images, once it's on the computer it is now a copy of my original piece. Thirdly, walls! Find walls where I can hang art at someone's approval, and where people can see my art. The End.

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and You're Only Ever You [Feb. 20th, 2015|09:28 pm]
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end of Day Two [Feb. 11th, 2015|04:51 pm]
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This is my stopping point from last night. Now I will begin the third day on her. I still really like her, can't wait to paint color on her skin and especially her face. Don't want to rush into it though, circle ing in on those areas though.
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End of Day one [Feb. 10th, 2015|02:13 pm]
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I like her a lot!
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(no subject) [Jan. 30th, 2015|04:50 am]
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Really wish I had one single blog..
I might get my brokeneyeball blogspot soon..! Checking every day till 90 days is up.. Whoever had it after I idiotically changed my URL, deleted their blog.!!
Also wish I had used one single sketchbook until I filled it up. I've got piles. Buying a new one whenever I felt like it. Not so good.
Anyway, I must get to sleep. Goodnight universe.
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day four starts now [Jan. 26th, 2015|03:05 pm]
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Gonna add some paint to change up the background look. I like her though, needs a bit to be finished and make this painting good good,, to me, sorta, as opposed to just alright.
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Start of Day 2 [Jan. 21st, 2015|03:29 pm]
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in progress new one [Jan. 20th, 2015|07:52 pm]
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Just laying in the background and blocking in some darks. I aim to approach this one differently than my usual work. Wish me luck! Good, luck.
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(no subject) [Jan. 19th, 2015|06:40 pm]
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[Current Mood |awakeawake]

today, i've come back to work. I arrived back home last night in the evening. when i finally went to bed officially, I slept for at least 11 hours. Today, I'd like to pick what I'm painting next.
It seemed more fitting to lj about it, than to blog, i love my blogger, but i want it to be more about what is good, and not the unknown parts of figuring out things.. i mean that's just my inclination though. I'm going to make this post friends only. I like writing and stuff, journaling, well. ive got excuses for it. but, well they don't matter.
I think I will paint something that I think will get picked off our booth quickly. perhaps a brokebot piece, too many unnnessesary details here.

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Fuck it. Words are too much. words I have are rarely fitting. I once had a poem that was published. it was published on the first page of the book. i didnt know why, i thought it wasnt real, that it was just for me, my copy. but, perhaps at that point, someone truly appreciated my words.

, I don't want to claim im good with them, i want to paint what cannot be said. if i could say it, i wwouldnt need to paint it.

I want to paint inspired by nicola-samori. but me. a painted style, opposite of clean clear cut lines of a reality. a mixture of what is, what was. a memory of what is to be interpreted. thats what i want. a beauty captured. that is what i want. my heart wants to paint what it wants to paint. i will try to let my hands and brain be guided well.
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(no subject) [Jan. 18th, 2015|12:39 am]
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In about two hours, I'm gonna be getting ready to head out the door. I'm driving to a funeral in Nevada. ...

Not much else to say, do not want to get into any details and such. Just popping in for that though. Unfortunate start to the year, a death in the family.  Ok, bye.
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New Year, eh? [Jan. 2nd, 2015|03:57 am]
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In about 12 hours I will be on my way downtown to set up for the artwalk. Hopefully enough sales will come our way, that I will be able to use my Christmas money on myself :)
I look forward to working on new things soon, and orginization, cleaning of the unnessessary, and being my usual self; always getting better, always striving and reaching for the stars. In love with the world and my place in it. I'd say my reality is pretty damn good. I am wiser than I was ten years ago, I was quite dumb. And well, being a January baby, I will be reaching level 29 soon, I've never felt better, you know, generally speaking, I look forward to what I can make of this life.
Peace, love, and all that good stuff. Here's to keeping warm tomorrow night. And to Always here. In the present. Doing my best.
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hummingbird now glowing [Oct. 23rd, 2014|03:31 pm]
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Oils palette today
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Painting [Oct. 20th, 2014|04:27 pm]
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[Current Location |studio/livingroom ]
[Current Mood |not sad]

This one is a brokebot one, and it's getting some outlines, hopefully delicate and precise. Some other details needing to be cleaned up.

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BrokeBot canvas [Oct. 20th, 2014|03:14 pm]
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Working on this right now. Well trying to. It's three in the afternoon. I have a headache, trying to drink enough water. Probably have sheets to hang to dry now. Have to go to the bank in a few hours. Have to order some cream for my mom. Started writing a letter to a cousin a few days ago. She's written me in the past, many years ago, and I never wrote back. I feel like I can't handle the concrete-ness of letter writing. But hoping to finish and send it sometime soon. Hoping not ache in the head soon. Hoping to focus my mind to detail this painting. Hoping to get my mind off of the lack of social life, lack of certain things due to have a small social life. Hoping to be beautiful person, now and the rest of my life. Hoping to work hard enough that I might be able to move to a better place one day. Afford such luxuries and professional haircuts again one day.

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(no subject) [Oct. 15th, 2014|06:39 pm]
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[Current Mood |melancholy]
[Current Music |dont know the name]

Posted this on Instagram. Only 3 or 4 people have liked. Got more likes on that than I have friends.

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(no subject) [Oct. 5th, 2014|08:03 pm]
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I suppose I ought to be painting. at least a little. something to advance this painting on my easel. but well, i am not very focused. earlier i channeled some feelings into litte drawings of what i feel my face feels like. wel.. like a characture, and then i got acrylics to color.. and realized i want to go with a realistic color for skin instead of the easy red and white.. so, i used pure like raw sienna or something. which is an earth color. only on copy paper, so it didnt hold very well. and well the results were not that appealing. but something in the corner did look nice. the line drawing of my first attempt near which i squeezed out paints for this page. it looked nice in the end. insta grammed it. then i had dinner, and came back here again.. and well, i shouldnt focus on my looks. i should focus on with what to fill my life with. And just live a good life.
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Awesome [Oct. 1st, 2014|03:23 am]
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[Current Mood |hurray!]

I didn't modify my deck and I just won, big time! What a come back. 27 to 11. I thought I was gonna loose. Whoo!

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(no subject) [Oct. 1st, 2014|03:14 am]
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[Current Mood |sleepysleepy]

Making Hearthstone decks is /can be Hard. Working on a thrall custom deck. Play loose modify. Repeat.
So updated my blog today. The one I started after I quit posting here in 2010, and imported to it the posts from the blogger account I had from before I came here.
http://carolroque.blogspot.com/
Its looking good, now managing to actually be my favorite place. Well there was a mixup, and stuff all personal about these two blogs. I guess it's all sorted now. Pretty petty in a way. And unnecessary perhaps, but it makes me happy, to have blog I like. I've just abandoned and started too many places on the internet and recently revisited many of them. Recovered that first blogger spot and posted there again, but that is what is now consolidated into the linked spot above. So, all is well. I think I will sleep good again tonight. October is here. FF is this week. Had a slow month this month, slow progress. Worked on only a few things. But have finally called it quits on two paintings. Try just need signatures and varnish. Quite happy about that. They weren't meant to take so long. But I like them. A couple others are very close. Hope to get really productive this upcoming, already here month. I will. Livejournal to the rescue, I don't think anyone reads here. But if someone does well, it's quite diary like here. So don't mind me. And if you do then I suppose this is goodbye. Haha.. I don't know. I'm a bit drowsy and I feel like I'm talking to myself here, which is perfectly awesome. It's how I usually like it, haha.. Just kidding.. I am a lone wolf sort of girl though. K bye.

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Journaling thoughts and blogging diary art posts [Sep. 25th, 2014|05:33 pm]
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Painting sunflowers. Trying to focus. Updated my teddybear thoughts blog.., I've painted just that. One yellow circle. Must keep going. (Herbrokeneyeball.blogspot.com) must not take the easy road.

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Have to push through the pain [Sep. 24th, 2014|11:31 pm]
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Today is the 24th. My cycle has begun. I been working on this piece for like what feels like 20 minutes this evening. It's really hard to focus sometimes. Went for a walk though with aldo. that was cool. need to focus. i hope to post a picture on my wordpress later, sometime. sharing my progress. but gosh, painting is hard. Maybe this place with replace the old xanga. maybe it will be filled with nonsense, with words that say nothing of great importance. but I also like sharing pictures. I can never decide. 
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Was in Mesa yesterday [Sep. 21st, 2014|03:21 pm]
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I cut my own hair today. Now playing Hearthstone, modifying my deck. Trying to win with something other than the Mage deck

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Picture of what's on my easel [Sep. 20th, 2014|12:17 am]
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Played Hearthstone this evening. Lost so much and so badly. Been trying to level up my priest deck. Entered the Arena. Came so close to winning, but got defeated so It's not even funny. Well, it should be. Then tried to play sims, it crashed. I don't know what to do next. Maybe Divinity instead. Had pizza tonight. Maybe I'll post all my diary entries here, been doing some on the Wordpress, some publicly, because I know.. No one sees posts of mine that I don't tag. Or like, I don't have my full name there and things like that. In my about page I have my other blog linked which has a link to my website, which is just my tumblr. I could take either of those links of. Make them sites standalone. Any traffic they receive would be from other places anyway, or places where it don't matter, like,, well they probably wouldn't have much traffic to begin with. And if they did and like wanted to contact me they could, either via comment or maybe my email is on my one blog. Last night watched a movie. Edge of Tomorrow. It was quite amazing id say. Might watch another now, or could but, maybe I don't want to, I'm not sure. Wish I had won today at a match, maybe I even did, just don't remember.
Fun games though. Gosh.

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Just watched aldo fight a boss on this one game, .. it was so rediculous. haha.

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Obi [Sep. 18th, 2014|01:54 am]
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My kitty Obi

Best buddy forever

#kittycatObi

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(no subject) [Sep. 12th, 2014|05:52 pm]
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[Current Location |phx, home/studio]
[Current Mood |contentcontent]

i think i like writing from my phone to livejournal, more than i do typing on the computer, like i am now. my screen is so damn open.

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So, I was thinking, this here can be the place where I can write without care, without censor. Or as drafts, for posts elsewhere. whatever.
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Yesterday I read about Virginia Woolf, on The Daily Post, on wordpress. It linked to another article:

http://www.brainpickings.org/2013/01/25/virginia-woolf-on-keeping-a-diary/

And well, all this reading was really enjoyable.

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what w [Sep. 3rd, 2014|07:39 pm]
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what should i do. where to diary about my art, where to diary. about what i do. here, or wordpress..

ive always thought of wordpress as like a sterile serious place for ...things.. people have to say. but i guess it just hosts blogs basically.
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(no subject) [Aug. 29th, 2014|02:09 am]
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I guess I have to decide where I like to post more, everywhere? or just one place.. or, like.. Whatever whenever.

talking blogs here. The other day I recovered my xanga archives, importing them into wordpress. and been writing there a bit. 
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(no subject) [Aug. 25th, 2014|11:03 pm]
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If here is my journal, and herbrokeneyeball is my blog..

Then, That's it. 
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(no subject) [Aug. 25th, 2014|03:29 pm]
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She's such a nervous hag. At times. When needing to do things one isn't accustomed to. What the heck. Said Shirley Beck. I wish I could get back my letters from before. The mind she had then was the best thing ever.
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E Pluribus Unum [Aug. 25th, 2014|12:23 am]
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E Pluribus Unum (F)
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(no subject) [Aug. 19th, 2014|04:08 pm]
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(no subject) [Aug. 18th, 2014|10:31 pm]
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I can't afford models.
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