Fear of Taking Control
I started this painting sometime around Christmas last year. I was feeling really sad, crying and feeling awful. I don't remember why I was so sad. But it had to do with me not having control over my life. I think I had been yelled at by my mother or something. And I just got so sad just for the fact that she had something to yell about maybe. but I tried to show that in the painting. Not being yelled at, but something about control. about someone not having control over themselves. Here, the boy wants to take control, he really wants to, but he's afraid..and doesn't know what to do.
I feel really happy with this painting.. It was actually a new thing for me, to put my real life into a painting. I always try to convey feelings..but I hadn't been too clear on why that feeling was there. But in this one I know exactly, and it's just much more enjoyable to feel that connection for me.
I like that feeling, of knowing what to convey/what you want to say before even starting.. :)
I finished another painting too, one that has been very 'secret' ...with my not sharing much of (or any) progress of what Ive been working on.
It doesn't have a title yet, I will share it soon, maybe when I come up with a title!
thanks for reading :)
oh also, Keep an eye out for an entry maybe later later tonight or tomorow, about some new
dolls! that will be in
my etsy shop early next week!